Did she?

is it over? Now this is what happened, who'd you trust? Your eyes, what you're seeing now. Or your heart, which is something you trusted from the very moment that feeling existed.

Rainbearer, rainbearer......... have you find your "life's simplest thing"? :D

*Sigh

Confirmed. Rainbearer is now someone's. Talk more bout this later .

enjoy the jealousy :D

Okay, some guy pic on her profile picture. So what? It doesn't mean anything. Well, to be honest, it could mean something either. But then again, so what? She deserves it. You just take all the blame cause you've been playing too much.

I actually dunno why i still playing this game. Maybe this is a wake up call, to do what you have to do and take all the risks. At least, you'll be honest with yourself, and her.

C'mon. what's the worst could happen? Rejection? Hey, you've been through that a lot (well, work-wise). Why is saying "I Like you" have to be big a deal. It cost you nothing, you don't loose anything. Just say it, take the risk, then move on with it.

Right now? Well enjoy the jealousy :D

Wow, it's seems like forever since the last post about Lollypop. Uuhm, it all started when she Buzz me
"Tir, klaria tanggal segini, bla bla bla" and i thought it's just the same old joke that she always told me. But turns out, it is true. But unfortunelly, she couldn't make it to the Klaria.

What? Yes, it'll be irony. She's the one who always "Tir, kalo ada Klaria dateng yah" And I Always like "Naah, it never gonna happen" And she'll all be like "Heh, awas yah kalo benran ada loe gak dateng" And turns out, it does happened. I'm there, but she didn't ;(

Why? Well, Big news actually. She participated in this Abang None Thing. Yeah, She'll win it, i can tell. She has all the quality. And you know what? She won it. I'm so happy for her.

And i told her about my concern about this Abang None Thing. "You're gonna be all famous and forget about us" and she replied diplomatically "Do i look someone who give a damn about those thing? Don't worry, I got my friends and familly keeping my feet on the ground"

And i was kind of relieve. Ooh Well, We'll see :D

Yeah, this game is officially CLOSED!

I'm exhausted. Calibrating what's right, what's wrong. What to do, what not to do. What i should be, what's not. What's she thinking and what I am.

I'm exhausted to be a person that she might feel attracted to. Exhausted trying to read all the situations, to calculate when i should do this, and when i should to that.

And all of this come down to the simplest thing.

"I'm falling deeply in like with her" (I don't know if that's a real line)

Yes, she's lollypop,

once a while she's the rain bearer, who brings heavy rain and create the brightest sunshine afterwards,

and on a beautiful sunday morning with my Holga, I realize she's just... arani... enjoying her life's simplest pleasures.




(it's 1.25 A.M, she's online. And I'm talking to her right now!)

It was tribute to forest...

My... oh my... it was Tribute to Forest. And everything was falling apart. All the theories, all the textbook attitude, all gone.

It's just me, Holga, Lollypop, and beautiful saturday afternoon.

Seharian ama dia emang nggak bagus buat kesehatan, deg-deg an, seneng, semuanya jadi satu. Anjrriiiiitt. Man, she was hot.

Tau ah, this is not good. not good at all.

At least for my inner game.

It's so crazy when you falling deeply in like with someone and you've only met her like 4 times. Dan pada saatnya loe seharian ama dia. Semua teori2 bubarrrrr.

You just.... fall..... and have a beautiful sunday afternoon.

My...oh my......

Huehehe..... check this out. Dua hari ini, adalah status berikut yang gw pasang di MSN:

- My o my I even love your name...... rain bearer.
- Rain bearer is she who brings heavy rain and create the brightest sunshine afterwards


And lolypop keep buzzing me from just simple "cieh" sampai (maybe she can't stand it to ask) sampai "who's she"

And i keep strike her out. Padahal ini udah kebayang loe dipikiran gw, kalo dia bakalan nanya "who's she" Dan dibayangan gw langsung gw jawab aja "It's you" with serius mode on, tapi di hati "nyantai mode"

Tapi, nggak lah. nggak sekarang. walau gw tau itu bakalan my only chance. gak bakalan lagi tuh dia nanya "who's she?"

Yg jadi pertanyaan adalah "kenapa dia nanya itu?" padahal sering banget gw bikin status2 kayak gitu, tapi dia gak pernah nanya.

Jawabannya: I, once, called her "Rain Bearer"

tuh,

tapi cuma sekali doang kok, Man, she really has sharp memory!

Wow did i missed the chance there?

Naaaaaah, maybe keep her questioning is the best right now!


Lanjuuuut